I
know, yes, I know and have been told that my ego needs to go on a life long
diet but goodness, can you blame me. Ok ok, I really should stop because I want
you to read this post because horror of horrors, you might actually discover a
gem and learn something. As I refrain from being cocky about that, I begin my
post.
Really?
Is it? I wonder, I really do. I had a conversation with a long time friend of
mine and he said he had never been in love. I was shocked beyond words.
(picture the cartoon jaw drop) . At his age? How? What had he been doing all
this time then, I wondered. Anyway, it got me thinking, maybe this love thing
is hard. I empathized with all the people I know out there who fear emotions,
for various reasons. Some fears real and others that exist only in their heads.
Ranging from manipulative exes to obsessive and eerily possessive behavior. It
made some level of sense, I guess, it is scary after all.
It
sounded familiar, plus I knew that there was a time when the whole experience
was alien to me and sounded like an equivalent spy mission deep in enemy
territory without back up and support ( yes, mission impossible 4 is still
fresh on my mind so :-p). Then I realized that things have changed for me. I
realized that I conquered several obstacles and eventually ended up loving
myself more ( yeah, I'm hoping to get away with that one :-)). I realized that
my first notions of the emotions came from what I saw in the movies and heard
on radio. Little did I know, everyone else was as clueless as I was. I wonder
though, in the far reaches of my mind that I don't visit often, whether my
knowledge and confidence on the matter is because of my attitude (willingness
to fail and learn from it, several times) and approach towards the whole
experience or if I just got lucky. Shrugs, ah, over thinking.
All
I know is, you honestly have to love yourself just as you are ( in my case, as
a nut case but it is what it is) in order to be able to love and be loved by
another and undertake the challenge of enjoying a healthy relationship. The
beauty of the whole thing is finding a balance and living with it from having
moments of giddy, tingling and dizzying emotions yet living in the same world
in which logic applies.
And since I can't help myself, ha. Made you read. You know you love me xox... What am I doing, haha
Have a good one :-)